My project for my Expert Systems class has me making lists and grouping them for heuristic analysis.

Here's one inspired by methybeth. She write plainly and blatantly about things that I oh-so poetically hint at... And I'm wondering if it's the coffee running out or maybe I'm still afraid to face it all the way she does.

So here's a list:

Things my husband knew about my sordid past:

• I was raped when I was fourteen.

• I retaliated by being promiscuous.

• I had a drinking and drug problem.

• I'd never trusted anyone before.

• I'd never had an orgasm before.

  That's about it...

Things certan friends know now that no one I met before 1998 ever did... (including my husband):

• I was more than a biker chick.

• I've, uhm, been ludicrously violent.

• I mean *really* violent.

• I sold blow to people who carried guns.

• I've slept in alleyways.

• I watched my best friend die in a streetfight.

Things nobody knows yet:

• The sordid details.

Maybe methybeth has given me the courage, or maybe I'll start up a diary under some other name, or maybe...

Or maybe, since I've met you I don't need to anymore...

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